There’s not a single Norwegian soul at this hotel it seems like. It seems like everyone is german here! “Ich this frei?” is what people say when they want to know if the seat next to me is free. Enjoying my glass of redwine down at the disco, with live music.
Set’s me on fire, she sets me on fire.
Set’s me on fire. Fire.
Workout at the hotel’s own gym.
Working out in Gran Canaria means… hooooot.
I’m in Gran Canaria, the island, if you don’t know what/where it is, google it. So hot here. With my mom and sister, we’re staying here on vacation for three whole weeks.
Best evening ever. So much fun, with outdoor consert and backstage afterparty! Local band Insanitarium!
You know what?
I opened my video editing software.
And then I closed it.
Been on the island cabin place for four days… It’s weird weird, so quiet. Looking forward to getting home and getting prepared for the weekend, big event outdoors consert thing in town.
You know, the worst pain in the world is not physical. The worst pain ever is losing someone. Someone you loved, very, very much, died away from you. It’s like, in this example, I want to call him. More than anything, I even still have his number saved in my phone, and I want to call him. Hear how he’s doing. “How are you”. I want to talk to him, tell him how I have progressed, how I am doing these days, and what’s on my mind. But I can’t.
I think about him every single day, and I can’t help it.
When I’m with my friends. They ask me what’s wrong, when I get that serious face. I can’t just tell them what I’m thinking about. I feel like they… would never understand, how I really… really… felt about him.
Oh the void.
(Best friend died of cancer in february)
I’m sick, I have a cold. I want to do a lot of things but I can’t, because I feel bad. I feeel like I need to do a lot of things. I’m happier when focused and doing things. My apartment still feels empty and silent, and it’s weird being alone.
It’s raining so much right now it’s like a thousand showers on from the sky. I can hear the rain, hitting my roof.