For a long while, I’ve felt my life is over, or it will soon be over. Depression does that to you, I guess. When thinking about my future, I see a wast blank field of emptiness. I don’t know where I’m going. I’m still a little girl, it feels like. Oh, how I wish I still just was a little girl. Everything becomes more serious when growing up, and that fantasyland of an illusion a kid gets of the world becomes clearer, and you’re able to see the hard truth. Death. Sickness and health. Breakdowns. It constantly feels like a low undertone, that’s always there, a dark tune of anxiety, afraid for something terrible soon to happen. Even when you’re laughing. And forgetting. Just for a brief moment, you forget. Oh it’s lovely. Music does that to me. Nourishing the thought of the light at the end of the tunnel for everything I’m worth, for hope is a very, very, dangerous thing to lose. Keep walking.
Yeah. Been here for 5 days. We’re staying here because my mom needs to take a lot of tests.
And guess what I bought. Red heart lights, 8,6 meters long thing.
Almost like this: (picture from google)
Will be so romantic in my bedroom, eh. Looking forward to it haha…
My mom and I are now staying at oslo’s hospital for a few days. Been a long and hard day.
My mom and I are going to Oslo tomorrow, she’s going to have some check-ups at the hospital. Something with her back and walking.
Today I’m gonna pack and get ready, and such.
Will meet my sister and do some Oslo shopping as well while there. :)
Unexpected day off from work today.
Was great news since I’m as sleepy as I’ve never been before.
This children day care job is really tough stuff, I always get exhausted after work.
Just watched the movie Jumanji. It was wild, lol.
Tomorrow I think my Final Fantasy XIV A realm Reborn box will arrive in my mailbox.
I think I may have high expectations =D
Anyone on here playing it?
Do you guys remember when I told you about a good friend of mine at 37 years old got cancer, about 5-6 months ago?
I got the terrible message yesterday, about his passing. He lost the battle against cancer…
He was fit as a fiddle. And all of a sudden, cancer strikes.
We met, and quickly became great friends back when I took the 3 months psychology course last year, along with 6 more people. We were a group that laughed so much every day because of him and his outgoing nature and insane sense of hilarious humor.
I’m going to his funeral today. It’s a 3 hours drive, and Aksel and Christine are joining.
The fact that cancer may appear so sudden, makes me think this could really happen to just about anybody.
Just the thought of that absolutely frightens me to the core.
Hello people. This is a fine day… Here I have my Hyrule Historia book I bought long ago, my Link Between Worlds Guide book I bought in december, and now, today I bought the game! ZELDA A LINK BETWEEN WORLDS. =) opening it now, and I will begin <3 #gaming #Nintendo #game #3ds #guide #book #prima #alinkbetweenworlds #zelda #gamemaster #hyrulehistoria #blogging
I made a pinjata today for the kids.
Dressup day at thursday for them.
All grownups needs to dress up as well omg…